It's been one of those weeks and honestly it looks like there are two more coming. You know that's just how it is sometimes. One thing right after the other, before you can look up from this concern another has appeared on the horizon. When it gets really bad the next problem has clunked you in the head before you can see it coming. Broken stuff, more things to take care of, people being mean, more broken stuff, sickness, injury, more broken stuff, storms of life or just plain old storms...it's just that way sometimes I suppose. After being whacked around for awhile you finally think it's just you doing battle with the world.
I find myself knowing in my head that God is in the whirlwind with me but struggling with my moment-to-moment-heart-focus. I've been walking the road of faith long enough to not wonder about God's love or wisdom but I'm a long way from saint so I still carry questions about why God does and doesn't do what seems needed. It's really good that Jesus said to let the children come because I'm not much more mature than the average child when life is uncomfortable, difficult, hurtful and cruel.
So I'm at Hanover High School following the Lee-Davis Marching Band, like I do all fall. The kids are in costumes, eating pizza, laughing and playing. The weather outside is cold and wet. YUCK! I'm having one of those, poor-pitiful-me-days. Taking stock of all the misery...earthquakes, hurricanes, stolen cars, broken septic lines, injuries, assorted mean people and ugliness...I take my paper plate over to the trash can to throw it away. The janitor is standing beside the can, smiling, getting ready to clean up. He spoke, I spoke, we were talking about the weather and then quickly on to the "hard winter" that's ahead. He looks at me and says, "God's watching out for us you know. He put the firewood on the ground so it'll be easy for us to get to." I looked, shocked, perspective shifting, then realize I'll never look at my big fallen Oak tree the same again. What was a problem, a loss, transformed into God's assistance with firewood.
Though I can't see it, God is making firewood, lending a hand, loving and guiding and holding and carrying and loving us each one. You see it's not about me or my perspective. It's not about you or your perspective. It is all about God and God's Almighty perspective. I don't think God does mean stuff and I don't think God makes everything happen but I do think God makes everything amount to good if we can give enough time and distance. LI
I find myself knowing in my head that God is in the whirlwind with me but struggling with my moment-to-moment-heart-focus. I've been walking the road of faith long enough to not wonder about God's love or wisdom but I'm a long way from saint so I still carry questions about why God does and doesn't do what seems needed. It's really good that Jesus said to let the children come because I'm not much more mature than the average child when life is uncomfortable, difficult, hurtful and cruel.
So I'm at Hanover High School following the Lee-Davis Marching Band, like I do all fall. The kids are in costumes, eating pizza, laughing and playing. The weather outside is cold and wet. YUCK! I'm having one of those, poor-pitiful-me-days. Taking stock of all the misery...earthquakes, hurricanes, stolen cars, broken septic lines, injuries, assorted mean people and ugliness...I take my paper plate over to the trash can to throw it away. The janitor is standing beside the can, smiling, getting ready to clean up. He spoke, I spoke, we were talking about the weather and then quickly on to the "hard winter" that's ahead. He looks at me and says, "God's watching out for us you know. He put the firewood on the ground so it'll be easy for us to get to." I looked, shocked, perspective shifting, then realize I'll never look at my big fallen Oak tree the same again. What was a problem, a loss, transformed into God's assistance with firewood.
Though I can't see it, God is making firewood, lending a hand, loving and guiding and holding and carrying and loving us each one. You see it's not about me or my perspective. It's not about you or your perspective. It is all about God and God's Almighty perspective. I don't think God does mean stuff and I don't think God makes everything happen but I do think God makes everything amount to good if we can give enough time and distance. LI
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